As we ascended, clearing the tree tops, a stand of elms at the
edge of the green that I’d climbed halfway as a child, and never dreamed that
I’d be higher, I looked down again to catch sight of Rachel, her pale face
staring up at me, and I prayed that the two of us might one day be together.
Tom had opened his sketch book, and was making a hurried drawing of the clouds
above us, like purple and gauzelike, so that they looked as though they must be
parted. When my gaze lifted from the village green I saw that the magistrate
had turned white as a sheet, and was kneeling at the edge of the basket,
causing it to list slightly as we bounced merrily through the sky.
“Would you mind standing, sir?” Davis asked
And the
magistrate shook his head, and lifted himself halfway up, keeping his trembling
hand on the side of the basket to steady himself. This unmanliness surprised us
all, who had known that we’d be in flight the night before, these sorts of
terrors should have been restricted to dreams, or pillows, certainly not
displayed in front of one’s friends. At that point the magistrate leaned over
the side of the balloon and let out a voluminous amount of vomit, dishing back
to the land below the breakfast of eggs and toast with wonderful marmalade that
had greeted us the morning before our
journey. The loss of that small amount of weight caused the balloon to shift up
rapidly, jolting us again and nearly sending the magistrate pitching out to his
certain death.
“Steady yourself,” Davis admonished the magistrate, trying
to use a series of thin strings to guide the balloon in some semblance of a
direction. We were planning on flying up the coast, and landing some twenty or
so miles away if it was at all possible. The wind was colder at our new
altitude, and I found myself crowding closer to the flame at the center of the
basket.
Davis, having steadied the balloon for a moment in a light
breeze, opened up a bottle of wine and offered Tom and I cheese and crackers.
The magistrate, poor fellow, was exempted from the offering. “The faster we
drink it the higher we rise!” Davis said, with all the excitement of a man hell
bent on discovery. Below us, the small white roofs of a village appeared, and,
perhaps a horse and buggy moved down the street. It was difficult to tell. The
perspectival change was either exhilarating or sad, depending on one’s mood I
suppose. Tom described it as feeling a certain kinship, with the people below
us, a connection that would have been impossible without this new mode of
travel. He did not feel that it was spying, but that it was a new kind of perspective,
an understanding an opening up of sorts. He thought that perhaps one day we’d
travel in a day, by balloon, from one city to another, and trade goods and
stories, and in this way perhaps we’d end all the years of fighting and
squabbling that has plagued us since, it seems, the dawn of time. He saw in the
village below him, an interconnected line of roads, a lace of connections, of
meaning.
My brother and I are different, always have been. I saw from
this new height that all of our striving was ant like. I saw what it must have
appeared like to the eye of God. It was useless, or near useless. The only
thing that divided us from the ants was our grand ambition, our pride in
ourselves. I saw the pitiful nature of man when viewed from above, the uselessness
of his striving. I saw in the long line of history that these new balloons
would not serve some common good for bringing us together, but that the few, a
power hungry nation or man, would find a way to turn them into weapons of war,
dropping cannonballs or firing muskets at the unsuspecting populous below. I
saw not the interconnection of man, but the divisiveness and baseness of him,
and I was certain that I would remember this flight not as something beautiful
as it should have been, but as something with the potential for horror.