I'm thinking that if I can just get Eddie Murphy and either John Travolta or Arnold (whatever) to participate as well I could probably have my own reality television show. Either that or if I had a twin brother or something. Or maybe just if my brother lived here, and I tweeted a lot and knew lots of stuff about handbags like the difference between a purse and a handbag and maybe if I was dating a professional athlete like Danica Patrick or that one volleyball lady who's name is Gabi or something, then I think we might really have a fantastic reality television show on our hands about dads who have famous wives taking care of their babies, which would mostly consist of putting Oxi clean (sp?) on crapped on clothes and practicing how to blow bubbles with the lil un's. We would probably set the show in the south and I'd have the sort of accent where lil un's is totally appropriate to say.
5:23 A.M. A baby cries in the distance. I roll over to see S leaving the room and walking into a hallway of light.
5:45 A.M. S returns, and I put on my glasses ready to hop into action like Clark Kent. She mumbles something about me needing to rest and her sister taking care of Sadie. I oblige.
6:43 A.M. The child is put down for a nap. I spend the next few moments in bed staring at the ceiling and contemplating this odd feeling of loss. You see, we creatures, or perhaps just most of us, are ones of habit. So, as I lay in bed beneath the ceiling fan trying to piece together what the gilded bits at the base of the fan were (either: tulips, a crown, a man hung on a cross with Modiglianiesque arms) I felt a heavy sort of sadness settling into the still dark room. As it turns out, I was going to miss going to work at the normal time. I was going to miss the normal little life that I'd carved out for myself. The wife, the baby, the yard, the fence, the job. Isn't life about getting ducks in a row? And now here someone had come along to kick the ducks over, or so it seemed. And then I felt guilty because how could I feel sad about taking care of sweet lil s? Luckily human beings are also, evolutionarily speaking, great creatures at adapting, and so I can already know with certainty that I'll have developed some schedule with il s that I will be sad to see go months or years from now, and perhaps I'll spend that morning wondering about the shapes at the base of the ceiling fan, while the monitor buzzes on, sounding like a wave from the California coastline of my past that never recedes.
7:30 The little one awakes all smiles.
7:30-5:45 P.M.
I spend time with s. It's strange to spend time with a little being who's raison d'etre seems to be picking up various objects and then gnawing on them for a few seconds. This leads to a game where I pull her up to a sitting position and then as she pulls my knuckle towards her gaping maw I pull it away at the last second leaving her to suck on her own boring fingers. And okay, so the highlight of this period time is watching her frantically bobbing head as she tries to decide which small toy to pick up and shove in her mouth. After which, the gentle gnawing, she generally starts breathing heavily and may emit a sigh, as if the mere act of deciding which to shove in one's mouth is incredibly stressful, and I start to worry about her heart rate and cholesterol and wonder whether we should ask our doctor for some meds to make sure she's in good health in her sixties. Also, she blows bubbles, or raspberries or whatever, which creates a thick sheen of drool on any shirt and one of her three chins. It's a good time for all.
8:30-9:30 Attempt to help kindly visitor with her son as she prepares to leave. Fail. The child seems distressed at my attempts to keep him amused though he immediately grins at me as though I'm his long lost old friend as soon as his mother picks him up. I try not to take it too personally.
9:30 More raspberries, inane yelling, and bottle feeding.
11:00 Nap.
11:00
I decide that I need to continue my workout regimen at home. Google home workouts. Come up with the Spartan workout from 300. The video is two minutes worth of exercises followed by one minute of the guy doing the demo posing shirtless. I make note on the Youtube video that I found the first two minutes more useful than the last bit. I'm not sure that I can spend 1 third of my workout just posing with my shirt off because it doesn't seem like it would keep you in very good shape.
Exercise-It turns out I can't do one-armed push ups. Also, I find an old pipe, much to S's imminent displeasure who will make a cease and desist order as soon as she reads this, upon which I can do pull ups but not without ramming my head into the ceiling and the pull ups aren't quite all the way and the pipes are incredibly dusty, and I'm fairly certain that a brown recluse has been waiting years for just this moment, but I do them anyway, cheating death yet again while occasionally slamming my head into the ceiling.
12:00 Hi baby.
1:15 Nap.
nap. Now is my chance to make good on the day. I move laundry over, for S, if it were up to me we'd do one load every three months or so like I did in college, though lil s seems to need her clothes washed more frequently probably due to incontinence. Then I go outside and water our red maple, which pretty much just looks like a Charlie Brown tree at this point, no leaves to speak of, and the feckless (a word I love) workers who put it in (though one could point out that I could have probably bought and put in a tree myself) haven't delivered the bag that's supposed to go at its base, and so I'm watering it with the hose and wondering how soon until it dies like those azaleas from last year, and as much as I like gardens I think I should probably switch over to the rock variety.
2:05 Hi baby.
3:15 nap Note: Sort of. Closer to 3:30.
By this point in the day I've got the whole nap thing down. As soon as she even whimpers I take her upstairs, wrap her in a green blanket, and shove her pacifier in. The kid loves it. I remember a trip from a few weeks ago when I couldn't set her down without screaming and about how I almost went crazy and was pretty much certain that I couldn't do the whole taking care of the kid thing (of course she's interrupting this now with crying for the first time today and I'm reminded that pride cometh before the fall) and was contemplating evening jobs and cut rate workers from obscure foreign countries. But I guess I'm just going to take care of the little gal and get used to spitting raspberries and relearning my ABC's, and all that sort of stuff that a parent does when they have a child.
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
Let's talk about the dead
I jest. Certainly discussing those who have passed, God willing, from this life into the next are best left to their own devices. That said, I read an interesting article this week in one of my magazines that quoted extensively from the autobio by Mark Twain. I must confess herein that I haven't actually read anything by Twain. I listened to Tom Sawyer, but I'm not sure that an audio book counts the same as reading it. Even though I heard every word, I'm still not sure that the experience itself is similar. Anyhow, enough dithering about, it's time to read quotes by people who are not me.
From a sign at a Tea Party rally
Is so read the
Constitution
As Americans we do not
have the right;
To a house
To a car
To an education
Americans have a right
to per sue (sic) happiness
not to have it given to
them!
Noted that the sign, accusing folks of cultural illiteracy, actually mistakes the Constitution with the Declaration of Independence where the pursuit of happiness line actually appears.
Chance that an American benefits from at least one government antipoverty project 1/6
Average annual income of an Englishman living at the start of the Black Death, adjusted for inflation: 1,300
Of a Haitian at the start of the current cholera epidemic: 659
Number of American soldiers who died in combat last year: 455
Minimum number who committed suicide: 407
Number of states that have applied for funding under the 2010 Affordable Care Act: 50
Number that have joined a lawsuit challenging the act's constitutionality: 26
From internal reports about FBI agents behaving badly:
During a polygraph investigation, and employee acknowledged conducting unauthorized searches on FBI databases and sharing information with coworkers. For example, the employee searched FBI databases for information on public celebrities the employee thought were "hot." Note: Isn't this just checking IMDB?
For my friend Mark on the difference between hipsters and scenesters:
"A hipster is somebody who cares about the music. They're really cool looking, and I guess they shop at thrift stores. They're do it yourself and very heavily invested in the indie music scene. A scenester is somebody who does it for the fashion and gets their clothes at, like, Urban Outfitters and pays 200 for a pair of jeans, which I think is ridiculous, but that's just me"--Betty 22.
Pabst Blue Ribbon. That's the hipster beer. Theres't that with everything. It's exhausting, absolutely exhausting. And that's why I don't try to keep up with it. If I was sitting here right now, and I had girls' jeans on, and a funky haircut, and was drinking Pabst Blue Ribbon all the time, and getting import copies of Swedish psychobilly folk noise pop, whatever the hell, and reading David Sedaris(note: Not too crazy about Sedaris myself. He's good, but so are lots of writers) and watching obscure samurai trash cult movies, if I was going for this just way obscure, cooler than you in ever possible conceivable way kind of thing, I just wouldn't really feel like myself anymore.--Chris 20.
Fiction From Life in Three Houses by Edourad Leve
You used to read dictionaries like other people read novels. Each entry is a character, you'd say that might be encountered under another rubric. Plots, many of them, would form during the random reading. The story changes according to the order in which the entries are read. A dictionary resembles the world more than a novel does, because the world is not a coherent sequence of actions but a constellation of things perceived. It is looked at, unrelated things congregate, and geographic proximity gives them meaning. If events follow one another, they are believed to be a story. But in a dictionary, time doesn't exist: ABC is neither more nor less chronological than BCA. To portray life in order would be absurd: I remember you at random. My brain ressurects you through stochastic details, like picking marbles out of a bag.
Also, Sadie has long pieces of hair that stick straight up in the back. She looks like Dennis the Menace. First full day with her tomorrow.
From a sign at a Tea Party rally
Is so read the
Constitution
As Americans we do not
have the right;
To a house
To a car
To an education
Americans have a right
to per sue (sic) happiness
not to have it given to
them!
Noted that the sign, accusing folks of cultural illiteracy, actually mistakes the Constitution with the Declaration of Independence where the pursuit of happiness line actually appears.
Chance that an American benefits from at least one government antipoverty project 1/6
Average annual income of an Englishman living at the start of the Black Death, adjusted for inflation: 1,300
Of a Haitian at the start of the current cholera epidemic: 659
Number of American soldiers who died in combat last year: 455
Minimum number who committed suicide: 407
Number of states that have applied for funding under the 2010 Affordable Care Act: 50
Number that have joined a lawsuit challenging the act's constitutionality: 26
From internal reports about FBI agents behaving badly:
During a polygraph investigation, and employee acknowledged conducting unauthorized searches on FBI databases and sharing information with coworkers. For example, the employee searched FBI databases for information on public celebrities the employee thought were "hot." Note: Isn't this just checking IMDB?
For my friend Mark on the difference between hipsters and scenesters:
"A hipster is somebody who cares about the music. They're really cool looking, and I guess they shop at thrift stores. They're do it yourself and very heavily invested in the indie music scene. A scenester is somebody who does it for the fashion and gets their clothes at, like, Urban Outfitters and pays 200 for a pair of jeans, which I think is ridiculous, but that's just me"--Betty 22.
Pabst Blue Ribbon. That's the hipster beer. Theres't that with everything. It's exhausting, absolutely exhausting. And that's why I don't try to keep up with it. If I was sitting here right now, and I had girls' jeans on, and a funky haircut, and was drinking Pabst Blue Ribbon all the time, and getting import copies of Swedish psychobilly folk noise pop, whatever the hell, and reading David Sedaris(note: Not too crazy about Sedaris myself. He's good, but so are lots of writers) and watching obscure samurai trash cult movies, if I was going for this just way obscure, cooler than you in ever possible conceivable way kind of thing, I just wouldn't really feel like myself anymore.--Chris 20.
Fiction From Life in Three Houses by Edourad Leve
You used to read dictionaries like other people read novels. Each entry is a character, you'd say that might be encountered under another rubric. Plots, many of them, would form during the random reading. The story changes according to the order in which the entries are read. A dictionary resembles the world more than a novel does, because the world is not a coherent sequence of actions but a constellation of things perceived. It is looked at, unrelated things congregate, and geographic proximity gives them meaning. If events follow one another, they are believed to be a story. But in a dictionary, time doesn't exist: ABC is neither more nor less chronological than BCA. To portray life in order would be absurd: I remember you at random. My brain ressurects you through stochastic details, like picking marbles out of a bag.
Also, Sadie has long pieces of hair that stick straight up in the back. She looks like Dennis the Menace. First full day with her tomorrow.
Monday, March 21, 2011
Drinking advice for new parents
We have a visitor staying with us right now. A kindly visitor who also has a nine-month lil guy of her own. No worries, we've already taken the requisite cousins of different genders sitting naked in the bathtub. The sort of thing that is incredibly embarrassing for the children and yet the parents trot it out at every occasion because they can't get over how cute their little offspring once were, the ungrateful curs.
Anyhow after completing an Olympic round of trying to put lil s to bed. I'm glad that our kindly visitor shared my feeling that it takes roughly fifteen to twenty minutes of being screamed at by an infant to begin to start having insane thoughts. And, let it be said, yes, it is sad that those five good hours you just spent with your little ball of joy don't measure up. If someone asked you how your day went your response would rightly be, "Oh, it was tough," as though the five hours of mostly playing and giggling didn't even exist. The same sort of thing rings true for most of life and is either maladaptive or evolutionarily useful for an undisclosed reason.
We sat down to a nice dinner prepared by S and decided to have a couple of glasses of wine. Over the course of the next fifteen minutes two glasses of damn near full glasses of wine were spilled across our place mats, table, floor and computers. I only regret that it didn't reach the play mat because then Sadie would have gotten a fun surprise when she set about shoving it in her mouth as she does with almost everything now.
Side note. I want to remind parents to drink copious amounts of water. Remember that study they did a few years back that said we should drink like seven gallons of water a day. Well, it was wrong, but you still should load up on water. Why? Because parents generally start the day extremely tired from a night of waking up on and off and thus have a cup or two of coffee. Then, by the end of the day, when the child has finally drifted off into peaceful sleep, the ingrate, you can't wait to have some wine. Anyhow, just remind parents to drink water because I'm pretty sure we've got a whole bunch of dehydrated people wandering around the city pushing strollers like zombies.
The point is just this for all parents. I'll probably include this in my parenting book. All parents should be drinking hard alcohol. Why? Because it's not going to stain anything, and it gets the job of taking some of the edge off the day faster than wine anyway. So put away that ten dollar bottle of wine you got at Whole Foods and pour yourself a nice glass of gin. Sure it tastes like pine trees, but don't we use them as air fresheners in cars? We must love the scent of pine.
Or sit back in the old television watching chair and have a nice glass of vodka. This will also help you understand famous Russian writers with long last names. I really don't see a downside to this plan. The only down side is new parents continuing to drink red wine until they've stained every part of their house. So, a call to alcohol, the clear kind, the good kind.
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
Some
You know, life is either interminably short or interminably long, and I'm fairly certain that it's dependent upon the activity. Thus, we frail human creatures are unable to do everything that we'd like to do. I'd like to take up ice dancing and compete in the winter Olympics, but I fear I've run out of time. The closest I can get is dancing in the mirror with lil s looking at me quizzically while I accept the gold from a frowning eastern bloc judge.
While there are a myriad of things that have gone undone I'd like to focus on one of the main failures that has happened for a person of my ilk. Note, it was nice to read that mathematics are pretty much hard-wired into people. Ie, there is only so much that person can learn. You either got it or you don't. Anyhow, I'm talking about books, as usual. And, more specifically, the vast number of them that I haven't read.
1) Guns, Germs, and Steel by Jared Diamond.
Why? Because everyone was reading this book for two years. Though in retrospect you're not entirely sure that anyone else ever finished it because you've never heard a good conversation about the book.
Scene: It's mid-afternoon in Ocean City. The air is thick; white curtains billow in useless wind. Someone is in the kitchen talking about which recipe to cook. The debate is over two things that are almost entirely comprised of chocolate. I walk down the short hallway past wicker chairs to the shelf that holds Guns, Germs, and Steel. This is the year that I am going to conquer the book. I walk back down the short hallway ignoring a ball of white fur that is begging for some kind of food. I sit down on the couch melting between old cushions. The heavy weight of a good book rests against my chest.
This scene has taken place on at least three occasions. But then, something always happens. The interminable conversation about dessert is still going on and despite the sparking ideas being presented in the prologue it seems imperative that I mention to someone that either option is great, and that the worst option of all is to delay any further in preparing some sort of dessert from May or June of Martha Stewart's eating well. I try and coax S away from her spreadsheet and into the kitchen.
Option 2: Despite the sparking prose and interesting ideas someone picks up a tennis racket. "Do you want to play tennis?" Of course I want to play tennis. The body in motion is a beautiful thing. Well, not exactly beautiful when I rip yet another awkward backhand into the court in front of me where it dribbles into the net, but oh well.
Option 3: Someone mentions grilling or drinking wine. These are the sorts of things that take precedence over sparkling prose and interesting ideas. I remember reading an author recently who said that two glasses of wine made him a much better writer but that he could never stop at two. I've found the same sort of math to be true in awkward social situations as I remember quickly downing two at my wedding before making the rounds to tables full of people that I may or may not have known. Anyhow, the point is that Jared Diamond has nothing on wine or burgers.
Scene: The sun fades behind a thin layer of clouds. Small black birds dart from the roof of the condo into swarms of insects. The bay is calm. Edges of the water slap softly against the dock. Across the water I watch a family play a reasonable game of volleyball. The sort of thing where everyone is a winner. And as the sky bruises and the grill warms, I smile, and promise myself that I'll get to Guns, Germs, and Steel some day soon.
While there are a myriad of things that have gone undone I'd like to focus on one of the main failures that has happened for a person of my ilk. Note, it was nice to read that mathematics are pretty much hard-wired into people. Ie, there is only so much that person can learn. You either got it or you don't. Anyhow, I'm talking about books, as usual. And, more specifically, the vast number of them that I haven't read.
1) Guns, Germs, and Steel by Jared Diamond.
Why? Because everyone was reading this book for two years. Though in retrospect you're not entirely sure that anyone else ever finished it because you've never heard a good conversation about the book.
Scene: It's mid-afternoon in Ocean City. The air is thick; white curtains billow in useless wind. Someone is in the kitchen talking about which recipe to cook. The debate is over two things that are almost entirely comprised of chocolate. I walk down the short hallway past wicker chairs to the shelf that holds Guns, Germs, and Steel. This is the year that I am going to conquer the book. I walk back down the short hallway ignoring a ball of white fur that is begging for some kind of food. I sit down on the couch melting between old cushions. The heavy weight of a good book rests against my chest.
This scene has taken place on at least three occasions. But then, something always happens. The interminable conversation about dessert is still going on and despite the sparking ideas being presented in the prologue it seems imperative that I mention to someone that either option is great, and that the worst option of all is to delay any further in preparing some sort of dessert from May or June of Martha Stewart's eating well. I try and coax S away from her spreadsheet and into the kitchen.
Option 2: Despite the sparking prose and interesting ideas someone picks up a tennis racket. "Do you want to play tennis?" Of course I want to play tennis. The body in motion is a beautiful thing. Well, not exactly beautiful when I rip yet another awkward backhand into the court in front of me where it dribbles into the net, but oh well.
Option 3: Someone mentions grilling or drinking wine. These are the sorts of things that take precedence over sparkling prose and interesting ideas. I remember reading an author recently who said that two glasses of wine made him a much better writer but that he could never stop at two. I've found the same sort of math to be true in awkward social situations as I remember quickly downing two at my wedding before making the rounds to tables full of people that I may or may not have known. Anyhow, the point is that Jared Diamond has nothing on wine or burgers.
Scene: The sun fades behind a thin layer of clouds. Small black birds dart from the roof of the condo into swarms of insects. The bay is calm. Edges of the water slap softly against the dock. Across the water I watch a family play a reasonable game of volleyball. The sort of thing where everyone is a winner. And as the sky bruises and the grill warms, I smile, and promise myself that I'll get to Guns, Germs, and Steel some day soon.
Sunday, March 6, 2011
A review of sorts
4:32 A.M. Listen to s crying for a total of two minutes. Presumably she falls back asleep or at the very least, I do.
5:46 A.M. Awake so s crying.
8:13 A.M. Awake to find s and S snuggled up in bed next to me. Attempt to fall back asleep while a squirrel patiently pushes an acorn from one side of the attic to another. Disdain sleeping. Dream about getting up into the attic and exterminating squirrels. Briefly consider how scared I'd be. Worry probably unfounded due to relative mismatch in body weight/size. Though, the true difference may actually be the incredibly advantage in brain type possessed by mammals.
8:30 A.M. Begin reading a book downstairs in the very gray morning light pushing through the blinds.
9:37 A.M. These sentences from the Evolution of Childhood reminding me, yet again, why I am not a scientist in reference to the difference in slope between brain/body size.
"Ontogeny may explain the differences: since both brain and body growth are hyperplastic-dependent on cell division and proliferation-in embryonic or early postnatal life, genes pleiotropically affecting both brain and body hyperplasia may mediate steeper slopes for macroevolutionary allometry, with metabolic rate-to-body size scaling setting an upper limit on the slopes."
Note that I should probably get back to reading Being and Time for a nice break from the book.
10:00 A.M. Mother and daughter arrive from morning slumber. Breakfast has already been consumed by important parties, daughter/me.
10:37 A.M. While washing dishes.
M: I thought you were going to make breakfast?
S: You said you already ate breakfast?
M: Yeah, but I thought you were going to make a real breakfast.
S: Fine. What do you want me to make?
M: I'm not really in the mood anymore.
11-12:30-Read short stories from Drinking Coffee Elsewhere/watch baby s spit bubbles on her shirt.
1-3:20-Depart the house to obtain food for the upcoming week. Baby s is asleep in the car. Briefly talk about how s isn't supposed to be taking motion naps, that she's supposed to learn how to sleep on her own. Oh well. Take a slight back way to get to Trader Joe's and congratulate myself inwardly/outwardly.
2:42-2:49-Practice patience while attempting to leave the TJ's parking lot. Fail. Succeed. Fail. Ultimately succeed then fail.
3-3:20 Have a brief conversation about nannies with S. Decry her inability to make a decision. Damn pro's and cons list. I briefly elucidate my distaste for her cyclical way of making decisions that tends to wear me down, such that, when the decision is ultimately hers it is not made out of my indifference but my lack of fortitude against the test of ever deepening circles of uncertainty.
S: Just tell me what to do.
M: I've been waiting to hear that for seven years.
Note: Tell her what we should do.
3:45
S: I'm making that chicken pot pie.
M: It's four fifteen. I'm not hungry.
S: By the time it's out it's be 4:15.
M: I'm not sure that's helping your case. Are we getting old?
4:15-6 P.M.
Read some more of the book I don't understand. Actually look up ontogeny and phylogenetic, so I have some idea of what the author is talking about. Play with Sadie.
A is for ate babies crying.
B is for babies bawling
C is for cids crying.
D is for, well, you get the picture.
7-9 P.M. Bath for lil s. Books for lil s. Repeated attempts to put s to bed thwarted by maniacal crying. s falls asleep about seven times curled up against either S or my chest only to break out in tears as soon as we put her down in her crib. Nerves frayed. Consider what the going rate is for a child.
9:15 P.M. s finally goes down to sleep.
S: Okay, what do you want to do tonight? We have five minutes until she wakes up.
M: You could massage my sore calves while we watch a movie.
S: Let's go downstairs and listen to see if we can hear a beeping nose.
M: This is what you want to do in our five minutes?
S: Sometimes I get focused on minute things like this.
9:30-11:00-Watch the movie The Cove about the wholesale killing of dolphins in a particular Japanese city Taji. Note that problem appears to be a microcosm of the greater problem facing humanity, ie, we can't always have more. Related to a growth economy instead of a steady state economy and an increasing dependence on globalization rather than local communities to achieve optimum levels of sustainability. Oh well.
11:15
S brings up a conversation about who we should hire as a nanny.
M: Thanks for proving my earlier point.
Interlude:
S: You can't make your joke about tuna safe dolphin. I've decided it's not longer funny.
M: Can I at least keep the one about drinking oil off the nozzle?
S: Until we watch a movie about our complicity in wars related to fossil fuels.
M: Oh. No more documentaries then.
5:46 A.M. Awake so s crying.
8:13 A.M. Awake to find s and S snuggled up in bed next to me. Attempt to fall back asleep while a squirrel patiently pushes an acorn from one side of the attic to another. Disdain sleeping. Dream about getting up into the attic and exterminating squirrels. Briefly consider how scared I'd be. Worry probably unfounded due to relative mismatch in body weight/size. Though, the true difference may actually be the incredibly advantage in brain type possessed by mammals.
8:30 A.M. Begin reading a book downstairs in the very gray morning light pushing through the blinds.
9:37 A.M. These sentences from the Evolution of Childhood reminding me, yet again, why I am not a scientist in reference to the difference in slope between brain/body size.
"Ontogeny may explain the differences: since both brain and body growth are hyperplastic-dependent on cell division and proliferation-in embryonic or early postnatal life, genes pleiotropically affecting both brain and body hyperplasia may mediate steeper slopes for macroevolutionary allometry, with metabolic rate-to-body size scaling setting an upper limit on the slopes."
Note that I should probably get back to reading Being and Time for a nice break from the book.
10:00 A.M. Mother and daughter arrive from morning slumber. Breakfast has already been consumed by important parties, daughter/me.
10:37 A.M. While washing dishes.
M: I thought you were going to make breakfast?
S: You said you already ate breakfast?
M: Yeah, but I thought you were going to make a real breakfast.
S: Fine. What do you want me to make?
M: I'm not really in the mood anymore.
11-12:30-Read short stories from Drinking Coffee Elsewhere/watch baby s spit bubbles on her shirt.
1-3:20-Depart the house to obtain food for the upcoming week. Baby s is asleep in the car. Briefly talk about how s isn't supposed to be taking motion naps, that she's supposed to learn how to sleep on her own. Oh well. Take a slight back way to get to Trader Joe's and congratulate myself inwardly/outwardly.
2:42-2:49-Practice patience while attempting to leave the TJ's parking lot. Fail. Succeed. Fail. Ultimately succeed then fail.
3-3:20 Have a brief conversation about nannies with S. Decry her inability to make a decision. Damn pro's and cons list. I briefly elucidate my distaste for her cyclical way of making decisions that tends to wear me down, such that, when the decision is ultimately hers it is not made out of my indifference but my lack of fortitude against the test of ever deepening circles of uncertainty.
S: Just tell me what to do.
M: I've been waiting to hear that for seven years.
Note: Tell her what we should do.
3:45
S: I'm making that chicken pot pie.
M: It's four fifteen. I'm not hungry.
S: By the time it's out it's be 4:15.
M: I'm not sure that's helping your case. Are we getting old?
4:15-6 P.M.
Read some more of the book I don't understand. Actually look up ontogeny and phylogenetic, so I have some idea of what the author is talking about. Play with Sadie.
A is for ate babies crying.
B is for babies bawling
C is for cids crying.
D is for, well, you get the picture.
7-9 P.M. Bath for lil s. Books for lil s. Repeated attempts to put s to bed thwarted by maniacal crying. s falls asleep about seven times curled up against either S or my chest only to break out in tears as soon as we put her down in her crib. Nerves frayed. Consider what the going rate is for a child.
9:15 P.M. s finally goes down to sleep.
S: Okay, what do you want to do tonight? We have five minutes until she wakes up.
M: You could massage my sore calves while we watch a movie.
S: Let's go downstairs and listen to see if we can hear a beeping nose.
M: This is what you want to do in our five minutes?
S: Sometimes I get focused on minute things like this.
9:30-11:00-Watch the movie The Cove about the wholesale killing of dolphins in a particular Japanese city Taji. Note that problem appears to be a microcosm of the greater problem facing humanity, ie, we can't always have more. Related to a growth economy instead of a steady state economy and an increasing dependence on globalization rather than local communities to achieve optimum levels of sustainability. Oh well.
11:15
S brings up a conversation about who we should hire as a nanny.
M: Thanks for proving my earlier point.
Interlude:
S: You can't make your joke about tuna safe dolphin. I've decided it's not longer funny.
M: Can I at least keep the one about drinking oil off the nozzle?
S: Until we watch a movie about our complicity in wars related to fossil fuels.
M: Oh. No more documentaries then.
Thursday, March 3, 2011
Let us now praise cute babies
Question Six from the All Souls exam was something along the lines of the Fermi paradox. Why haven't we seen signs of extraterrestrial life given the high probability, according to some, that it exists. Anyhow, I cheated the exam on this one and googled the question. I then ended up stumbling across the web page for the Fermi paradox, which pretty much covers the issue from every angle imaginable. If you have an incredibly amount of interest/patience it makes for a great read. Note: one of the main criterion for modern readers is brevity. People still consume vast amounts of text but they do it in truncated formats. That said, it's still an interesting read.
I remember listening to a long now talk maybe a year ago or two when this lady made the cast that ET life doesn't exist, and she had some logical reason, which now slips my mind. Incidentally, I once heard this great thing that has now slipped my mind should probably be the title of my memoir/a really boring story. As for as ET goes, I'm not really certain it exists. I'd guess that it would be hard regardless of other life forms even existing for them to have hit the same level of complexity in regards to something like radio waves or satellite images, which makes it nearly impossible for us to ever discover a fellow sentient planet. This aside from the fact that other habitable planets may be few and far between, or they may just have a bunch of sharks or dinosaurs and not anything remotely resembling humans.
Alternative answer: The government is covering it up.
Alternative answer: They are already among us.
Alternative answer: We are some giant science experiment they don't want to interfere with.
Alternative answer: We are serving as some environmental easement project.
Alternative answer: We are the sole planet with habitable life in the universe. This despite the Copernican objection. Ie, we are special.
Alternative answer: and so on....
Regardless of our place in the universe babies are still cute. Let's celebrate that a little bit. Also, heavy narration by fathers during family videos is also something to celebrate.
She's at her best first thing in the morning. This is not a trait we share. Note that she waves to the camera at 47.
Narration is what keeps videos great.
I remember listening to a long now talk maybe a year ago or two when this lady made the cast that ET life doesn't exist, and she had some logical reason, which now slips my mind. Incidentally, I once heard this great thing that has now slipped my mind should probably be the title of my memoir/a really boring story. As for as ET goes, I'm not really certain it exists. I'd guess that it would be hard regardless of other life forms even existing for them to have hit the same level of complexity in regards to something like radio waves or satellite images, which makes it nearly impossible for us to ever discover a fellow sentient planet. This aside from the fact that other habitable planets may be few and far between, or they may just have a bunch of sharks or dinosaurs and not anything remotely resembling humans.
Alternative answer: The government is covering it up.
Alternative answer: They are already among us.
Alternative answer: We are some giant science experiment they don't want to interfere with.
Alternative answer: We are serving as some environmental easement project.
Alternative answer: We are the sole planet with habitable life in the universe. This despite the Copernican objection. Ie, we are special.
Alternative answer: and so on....
Regardless of our place in the universe babies are still cute. Let's celebrate that a little bit. Also, heavy narration by fathers during family videos is also something to celebrate.
She's at her best first thing in the morning. This is not a trait we share. Note that she waves to the camera at 47.
Narration is what keeps videos great.
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
Language
Invariably she cried. Back then, and now if truth be told, I was a creature of a very determinant nature. I lacked a sort of understanding of time that I think has been essential to our development as a species. It took Kepler and Copernicus pointing out that the earth itself was not fixed in the heavens in order for the idea of space travel to even be conceived. This theory even and against the seeming laws of nature. Why, just toss an apple in the air and watch it fall. Proof enough that the world isn't spinning on its axis like a top. And yet there they were conceiving of things outside of their seemingly limited spectrum.
I point the story out only to show the retrograde sort of way that my own limited being in the world stands contrast. I'm a throwback of sorts to the hunter and gatherer types who were wholly dependent on stomach to direct them. I follow the sage advice offered in Best in Show "If you get tired; pull over. If you get hungry, eat something." Certainly I'm not as much a slave as I'm claiming here, but I don't hesitate to say that I'm stuck in the moment.
I don't mean this in the sort of way that you're probably thinking, where a person learns to focus on every breath and thank God that they are alive. No. It doesn't mean the moments I live in are any less boring than the next guys. Rather, it means that I can't seem to see my way through a moment and into the future looming right behind it.
Why, if I had been with old Copernicus when he was theorizing about the earth's revolution around in the universe I'd have told him to leave well enough alone. Maybe asked if he could use a beer or something. "The future, my friend, is now. And right now we are wasting it."
Atemporality is probably the wrong way to describe it because that is that which is timeless. I suppose at this point it's probably best to give you an example, but the more I think about it, and isn't it strange that our thinking is relegated into words when we have to communicate with one another, this sort of thing I'm describing is likely an affliction for lots of people working at crappy jobs drifting across this seemingly stationary planet and waiting for it to do the moving.
I guess what I'm saying here, apologies for honesty, is that it was some sort of great achievement in human history when people came up with retirement plans. That's not at all the main thrust of this thing but just another thought, which being thought, is now expressed, and is related to the painfulness of blogs and an old quote about Updike, "Did the man have one unpublished thought," which makes him the world's first blogger. I mean, how did we manage to convince a bunch of people trapped in time like me that it was a good idea to plan for the future.
It took us eight years to reach the moon after Kennedy's speech, so maybe enough of the population has caught on to the fact that the earth is moving, and the rest of us are just being left behind. Some day in the future a ship is going to set sail in the stars and people just like me will be watching it depart from the comfort of a couch or whatever we'll have by then wondering what might have been.
I point the story out only to show the retrograde sort of way that my own limited being in the world stands contrast. I'm a throwback of sorts to the hunter and gatherer types who were wholly dependent on stomach to direct them. I follow the sage advice offered in Best in Show "If you get tired; pull over. If you get hungry, eat something." Certainly I'm not as much a slave as I'm claiming here, but I don't hesitate to say that I'm stuck in the moment.
I don't mean this in the sort of way that you're probably thinking, where a person learns to focus on every breath and thank God that they are alive. No. It doesn't mean the moments I live in are any less boring than the next guys. Rather, it means that I can't seem to see my way through a moment and into the future looming right behind it.
Why, if I had been with old Copernicus when he was theorizing about the earth's revolution around in the universe I'd have told him to leave well enough alone. Maybe asked if he could use a beer or something. "The future, my friend, is now. And right now we are wasting it."
Atemporality is probably the wrong way to describe it because that is that which is timeless. I suppose at this point it's probably best to give you an example, but the more I think about it, and isn't it strange that our thinking is relegated into words when we have to communicate with one another, this sort of thing I'm describing is likely an affliction for lots of people working at crappy jobs drifting across this seemingly stationary planet and waiting for it to do the moving.
I guess what I'm saying here, apologies for honesty, is that it was some sort of great achievement in human history when people came up with retirement plans. That's not at all the main thrust of this thing but just another thought, which being thought, is now expressed, and is related to the painfulness of blogs and an old quote about Updike, "Did the man have one unpublished thought," which makes him the world's first blogger. I mean, how did we manage to convince a bunch of people trapped in time like me that it was a good idea to plan for the future.
It took us eight years to reach the moon after Kennedy's speech, so maybe enough of the population has caught on to the fact that the earth is moving, and the rest of us are just being left behind. Some day in the future a ship is going to set sail in the stars and people just like me will be watching it depart from the comfort of a couch or whatever we'll have by then wondering what might have been.
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